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Could it be that I just don't have much to say?
How can this be? It can't .
I think I may be lazy. Or it's that procrastination syndrome
that I suffer from.
Well it certainly makes me realize that even those that are writing about what I may consider utter nonsense have
to have focus, or is it discipline?
Either way if I am to continue doing this, I'm going to have to make some rules for myself.
Norman Mailer had to confine himself to a room away from home, with no phone in order to write. So there.
Maybe I ought to be the little train that could.
You know just a little more each time.
It's like weight lifting, maybe you have to build the writing muscle.
Yeah, Yeah that's the ticket.

Well that certainly didn't go well

HAH.
In the words of the great Chris Matthews.
So much for that 2010 new year resolution, right?
I have almost always stuck with my resolution until of course I decide to tell the world what it is. How embarrassing.
Even now starting again in my attempt to write this, my iPad went kaflooey on me, trying it's best to discourage me from writing.
I think one of my great flaws is that I have expectations. For myself and in others. That sounds like a setup doesn't it.
It has created quite a bit of pain. At times pain enough,that life seems like a stupid waste of time.
One of several mottos I have come to rely on is, "this too shall pass." I think if it weren't for one of my dogs and that motto - oy.

I think we should take it slowly.
If I rush in like a fool and tell you everything, I'll feel depleted and not want to hang out with you again for a long while. So I'd rather just have this brief time together and maybe get together for a bit tomorrow.
Sounds good, maybe, maybe not. Oh well, that's the way it needs to be right now.

Happy New Year Again...

Okay it's one of my new year's resolutions; to write several days a week. No matter how much I don't want to, no matter how little I have to say, no matter how much it embarrasses me. I've been pretty good about sticking to the deals I've made with myself for the past several years. I usually will just not make the deal if I don't think i can stick to it - duh. But if you've noticed sometimes people don't follow through. Not like I'm always on my game but I am definitely trying.

So I have a lot of opinions as anyone that knows me can attest to. Here i am just putting them to paper, eek how antiquated, putting them to what I don't know what the new modern way we say that. No one has to read these thoughts, for all I care. I'm doing it to sort things out, have a discipline, practice my keyboarding skills.